Starting over

2010-12-30T10:33:00.000-08:00

So a new year is on its way in and so I am feeling bloggy. I have been listening to an audio book of a book that is call "This Book Is Overdue." And the author is discussing blogs. Librarians who blog. So here I go.
The last time I tried blogging I had just gotten a divorce. I had an infant. And I was unemployed. I can't even remember being in that place anymore.
I thing I was in my self discovery phase, reinventing myself. But now approximately 3 years later, I don't feel the need for reinvention so much as reflection.Reflecting on where I am, how far I have come. Where I am headed from here. What goal should I set and which ones have I accomplished.
Is this a new years thing? For me it is a constant thing in my life, all year long. I am a planner. I have the need for self discovery. To know myself and I guess in some way be true to myself. My life is controlled by me. I am not controlled by anyone. I embrace the idea that I am in control of what happens to me. I may not get what I want, but It is up to me to make it happen.
I like this philosophy because I have met so many people who don't live that way. Possibly the majority. That Shit happens and we are powerless to avoid it. Living by that ideal, you wallow in shit. I choose to change my shoes, lay down boards and walk above the shit layer.

Aly in OR

Starting over